Thursday, December 02, 2010

Anger part 3

Then UGH! - UGH! - UGH! from the bathroom. And I’d stare at my father waiting for him to solve the problem somehow. The man solved problems for a living. He was some kind of PR monkey with the government. I was sure his chewing routine was just a delay tactic, or a meditative thing that would help him find a solution.

But it was Mother who found the solution. I really don’t know how - maybe Jesus found her - but one day I got sent home from my private junior high school early for beating both Sissy Jannah’s eyes black and saw a two-foot Jesus-on-crucifix on the piano. Above it was Jesus in profile, turning the other cheek I presume and looking serene.

Mother ran from the kitchen in a flour-covered apron and hugged me. I stiffened my body and hung my arms straight at my sides. "Whatever it is I forgive you," she said.

Since then she’s been on a mission, volunteering at the food bank, raising money for the church, even letting Christian refugees stay in our basement. She doesn’t cry anymore.

So, I’d love to find that Jesus of hers, or have him find me. And I look too. I spend 23 hours a day in this cell and all I do is look for Jesus. I've looked at every brick. I’ve looked under my bed and under my mattress, and under my roomie’s mattress and bed when she was getting her hour in the yard. All I do is sleep and look for Jesus. Before I sleep I pray he’ll come find me, because I don’t see him anywhere, and I don’t dream anymore either.

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Seems like you're exploring anger (again). Is it an alien concept to you? Or are you genuinely angry?

True, there's lots of stuff to get angry at, and it just so happens that many of the things that anger you anger me too.

But this is personal anger. I would have to wait more into the story to get a sense of whether this study is a metaphor or catharsis:-)
It's an interesting question, X. I guess I have a lot of empathy for angry characters. Myself? Yeah, I guess there are a lot of things I'm angry about, but in real life I don't think I come across as an angry person. Sometimes it's the trivial stuff that gets me riled up, unfortunately. With this character I'm trying to get in the head of someone whose anger controls her and is quite young. I've seen a lot of stories about that lately and been unsatisfied (they're either overly sympathetic to the point of being trite or the character just comes across as a complete asshole), with one exception (Down to the Dirt by Joel Thomas Hynes). So, this is my shot at doing a better job of creating a complete character.
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